Yesterday was our 41st wedding anniversary. I woke up feeling excited and happy but also a bit let down as it was one of those days where there are so many things going on and I knew we would not be able to take the time to actually celebrate the occasion.
Sometimes we are just overbooked; going in too many directions at once and not sure where to go first! Then to top it off, there are the phone conversations and email messages from family and friends that add another level of things that are already on ones mind. Sounds exhausting, doesn't it?
After a long day I was really feeling sorry for myself when I got a phone message from my sister to call her back. Well, it was even hard to find time to do that without the distractions of events happening around me; but I finally just bit the bullet and called her back hoping for the best, that I wouldn't get disrupted too many times during the conversation.
It turns out that the phone call was one of those "God Moments" as Pastor calls it:) Here it was our anniversary and my sister was calling concerning her life as a wife in the last weeks of watching her husband slowly leave his time here on earth. We talked about our children growing up and having lives of their own, rightly so; leaving a person alone with their spouse.
So what happens after that spouse is no longer here? It must be a lonely life even though you have your children, they can't spend every waking moment with you, nor should they.
It was then that I felt the spirit nudging me to embrace what I could of this time I have with the man I was blessed to be with. It isn't anything I don't already know, but it is something that I occasionally take for granted in our busy, hectic life.
The God given universe offers us a life full of opportunities and adventures. We are the only ones who can take advantage of that by being patient and listening to the whispers in our ears, the nudging at our backs and the goosebumps that go up our spine. These are all messages to us of how we can live the kind of life meant for us.
If we choose to ignore these signs, we tend to go down the wrong road and make choices that are not in our best interest and hurtful not only to ourselves but to others.
I don't know when I became in-tune to those "signs" or even when I started to recognize them as such. But I do know that they are with me all the time and when I trust in them they have never done me wrong.
This is one of those times when I was being nudged to take time and give thanks for the experience I have had with the man I was meant to share my life with.
I am thankful and grateful that somewhere along the line I learned to listen, be patient and trusting as it led to being blessed with a wonderful friend and soul mate.
Maybe this anniversary wasn't so bad after all:)